Bird, ‘The Wire,’ a life sentence paroled and a Colts recreation 40 years within the making
Bleary-eyed from 16 hours on a Greyhound bus, he strolled into the stadium operating on fumes. He’d barely slept in two days. The experience he was imagined to hitch from Charlotte to Indianapolis canceled on the final minute, and for just a few nervy hours, Antonio Barnes began to have his doubts. The journey he’d waited 40 years for regarded prefer it wasn’t going to occur.
But as he moved by means of the concourse at Lucas Oil Stadium an hour earlier than the Colts confronted the Raiders, it began to sink in. His tempo quickened. His eyes widened. His voice picked up.
“I got chills right now,” he stated. “Chills.”
Barnes, 57, is a lifer, a Colts fan because the Baltimore days. He wore No. 25 on his pee wee soccer crew as a result of that’s the quantity Nesby Glasgow wore on Sundays. He was a expertise in his personal proper, too: one in every of his previous coaches nicknamed him “Bird” due to his pace with the ball.
Back then, he’d catch town bus to Memorial Stadium, purchase a bleacher ticket for $5 and watch Glasgow and Bert Jones, Curtis Dickey and Glenn Doughty. When he didn’t have any cash, he’d discover a gap within the fence and sneak in. After the sport was over, he’d weasel his means onto the sector and attempt to meet the gamers. “They were tall as trees,” he remembers.
He remembers the final recreation he went to: Sept. 25, 1983, an extra time win over the Bears. Six months later the Colts would ditch Baltimore in the midst of the evening, a sucker-punch some within the metropolis by no means bought over. But Barnes couldn’t give up them. When his complete household grew to become Ravens followers, he refused. “The Colts are all I know,” he says.
For years, when he couldn’t watch the video games, he’d attempt the radio. And when that didn’t work, he’d comply with the scroll on the backside of a display.
“There were so many nights I’d just sit there in my cell, picturing what it’d be like to go to another game,” he says. “But you’re left with that thought that keeps running through your mind: I’m never getting out.”
It’s arduous to dream if you’re serving a life sentence for conspiracy to commit homicide.
It began with a handoff, a low-level vendor named Mickey Poole telling him to tuck a Ziploc filled with heroin into his pocket and conceal behind the Murphy towers. This was how younger drug runners had been groomed in Baltimore within the late Seventies. This was Barnes’ means in.
He was 12.
Back then he idolized the Mickey Pooles of the world, the older children who drove the shiny vehicles, wore the flashy jewellery, had the women on their arms and made any working stiff punching a clock from 9 to five appear like a idiot. They owned the streets. Barnes wished to personal them, too.
“In our world,” says his nephew Demon Brown, “the only successful people we saw were selling drugs and carrying guns.”
So at any time when Mickey would sign for a vial or two, Barnes would hurry over from his hiding spot with that Ziploc bag, out of breath as a result of he’d been operating so arduous. They’d promote a complete package deal in a day. Barnes would stroll dwelling with $50. “I could buy anything I wanted,” he remembers.
Within just a few years he was promoting the dope himself — marijuana at first, then valium, ultimately cocaine and heroin. Business was booming across the towers, which the locals known as the “murder homes.” Sometimes, he’d promote 30 baggage in a day. He was 14, pulling in $500 a day.
“A dealer of death,” he calls himself now.
He discovered to push away guilt. The means he noticed it, he was in too deep, “immune,” he says, “to what I was seeing every day.” The medicine. The decay. The murders. He was 9 when a good friend fell out of a Tenth-floor window, dying immediately. He was 11 when his older brother, Reggie, was locked up; 15 when his beginning father died of an overdose.
But he had a loving mom, a hardworking stepfather, a household that didn’t need for something when so many round them did. His stepfather drove a crane at a metal firm and made wage. His mom cooked dinner each evening.
“We had a black-and-white television, and nobody we knew had one of those,” Barnes says. “Us kids wanted bikes for Christmas? We got bikes. We wanted ice skates? We got ice skates.”
Mary Barnes was no idiot. She heard the whispers. She seen her son wasn’t dwelling. Finally, she confronted him. “You were raised better than this,” she scolded. “There will be consequences to what you’re doing.”
Antonio denied all of it. “Lied right to her face,” he says now, nonetheless ashamed.
He was climbing the ranks, working with a high-up hustler named Butch Peacock. Anytime the plainclothes police — “Knockers” — would roll up, Butch would shout, “Bird, grab the bag and go!” and Barnes would hear, as a result of he relished that feeling, of being wanted, of being trusted, of being a part of it.
One Saturday, whereas Barnes was taking part in shortstop in a bit league recreation, the Knockers closed in. His teammates begged him to remain. He ignored them. He darted off the diamond in the midst of an inning, grabbed the duffel bag and disappeared into the towers whereas the cops chased. He climbed 10 flights of stairs and almost handed out earlier than a neighbor let him slip into an residence.
Inside that duffel bag that day: a half-dozen weapons, 1000’s in money and 200 caps of cocaine. Later that evening, Butch handed him a special bag. It had $4,000 in it. “This is all yours,” he instructed him.
Barnes rose from runner to vendor to mid-level participant. He give up soccer. He dropped out of highschool. He drove across the streets of west Baltimore with a .357 Colt Magnum resting on his lap. “Like it was a credit card,” he says. A couple of nights per week, he’d work the depend, sorting by means of some $20,000 in money, loads of it in $1 and $5 payments, stacking the drug ring’s earnings from a single day’s work.
He by no means killed anybody, he says, however he’s additionally not ignorant to all that he was caught up in. He was awash in a world of violence.
“That was our business,” he says. “On those streets, it was either you or them. They’re out to rob you. They’ll kill you. They’ll snatch you up, duct tape your mouth and torture you if you didn’t give them what they want. They’d put your mother on the phone to scare you more.”
They discovered Butch within the entrance seat of his automotive one morning, blood trickling down his neck, a bullet behind his head. He’d been executed at point-blank vary outdoors a nightclub.
Barnes shrugged it off. He instructed himself he simply needed to be sharper. “That’s how backwards my thinking was,” he says. So as an alternative of getting out, he plunged additional in. He began operating with a brand new crew, one headed by town’s most infamous gangster on the time: Timmirror Stanfield.
They busted by means of his again door at 5:30 one morning. Barnes, cornered in mattress, had his arm round his girlfriend, Tammie, who was 9 months pregnant with their daughter.
“Bird, take your hands out from under those covers,” he remembers the officer telling him. “Do it real slow.”
He’d been arrested earlier than on misdemeanor weapons prices, however this was completely different. Five members of Stanfield’s crew could be tried for killing a state’s witness earlier than that witness might testify in a separate case, the boss for homicide and 4 of his prime lieutenants — together with Barnes — for conspiracy.
According to prosecutors, the dispute began when a low-level vendor didn’t present Stanfield “appropriate respect” throughout an argument on the fourth ground of the Murphy towers. Police stated Stanfield put one bullet within the vendor’s chest and 5 in his head. The trial lasted 9 weeks, interrupted at one level when Marlow Bates, a co-defendant and Stanfield’s half-brother, warned one of many witnesses, “You’re going to die.”
Barnes barely paid consideration, sleeping by means of most of it. He was 20 years previous and smug, satisfied he had nothing to fret about.
A witness who had initially positioned him on the homicide scene later recanted below oath. He refused to cooperate with police. He figured that they had nothing on him. “I thought it was the easiest case in the world to beat,” Barnes says. “I wasn’t there when the shooting happened.”
After closing arguments, the jury deliberated for 90 minutes earlier than touchdown on the verdicts. His legal professional took it as a promising signal. “When it comes back this quick,” Barnes remembered listening to, “that usually means not guilty.”
It was a Wednesday. April 1, 1987. Barnes made plans for that night. He was going out to have a good time.
They known as his identify first, and when he heard that phrase — GUILTY — he rattling close to fell over. His abdomen tightened. His knees wobbled. He began to lose his breath. The first thought that ran by means of his thoughts was how embarrassed he’d be if the entrance web page of the following day’s Baltimore Sun learn, “BIRD FAINTS AFTER VERDICT.”
The relaxation was a blur. Guilty, all of them. Life sentences, all of them. Stanfield and Bates snickered after they heard the decision, in keeping with the Sun, laughing out loud within the courtroom.
Instead of passing out, Barnes remained as cocky as ever. He exited the courtroom, handcuffs clamped round his wrists, and eyed Ed Burns, the Baltimore metropolis murder detective whose eight-month investigation led to the arrests and dismantling of Stanfield’s gang.
“You happy now?” Barnes requested, flashing a smile. “See ya in a year or two.”
More than a decade later, Burns would co-write a tv drama with a longtime Baltimore Sun cops reporter named David Simon. They known as it “The Wire.” One of probably the most feared drug kingpins within the present glided by the identify Marlo Stanfield. And within the sixth episode of the second season, a vicious hitman stands trial for killing a state’s witness, defiant to the top.
They known as him Bird.
Over 36 years, Barnes bounced amongst 14 prisons, together with a keep within the late Nineties at Marion, a maximum-security facility in Illinois. Three cells down from him was famed New York City mobster John Gotti. The two talked baseball, Gotti by no means lacking an opportunity to rub it in when his Yankees beat up on Barnes’ Orioles.
His goals of getting out died slowly, one attraction after one other swiftly denied by the state. It didn’t actually hit him till two years into his sentence that he was going to develop previous inside, wasn’t going to get to look at his new child daughter develop up. That’s when the despair sunk in. The anger. The remorse.
Panic assaults would come at evening, startling him from sleep. He’d have visions of his previous life — Eight months in the past, I used to be right here; three years in the past, right here … — and simply lie there, thoughts racing, eyes open, till 3 within the morning.
Slowly, Barnes got here to reckon with what he’d finished, the alternatives he made and the hurt he induced. He weighed the ache he introduced his household and his neighborhood. He didn’t pull the set off on the fourth ground of the Murphy towers that day — he wasn’t even there, he maintains — however he was a part of the poison plaguing his metropolis and choking its youth.
“I can never make up for what I did,” he says.
In jail, he discovered to learn and write, earned his G.E.D. and led counseling conferences for troubled inmates. He grew to become a printed creator — “Prison is Not a Playground” is Barnes’ story in his personal phrases, beginning with that plastic bag Mickey Poole slipped him as a 12-year-old.
He tutored these with developmental disabilities, together with a former cellmate. “Antonio is an amazing example of someone deciding that they’re going to grow and develop instead of being sucked into all the negativity that happens in there,” stated Brian Teausant, that inmate’s father.
He labored as a suicide companion for 23 years, counseling the prisons’ most at-risk inmates. He based three self-help packages that, in keeping with one in every of his former wardens, led to a decline in inmate self-discipline points. “Wardens don’t usually put their John Hancock on a letter of support for someone with a life sentence,” Barnes notes proudly. More than one did for him.
He was denied parole 5 occasions. At one listening to, Barnes was requested, “How can we put you back in a community that you helped rip apart?
He thought for a moment.
“Because Bird is dead,” he instructed them. “And you’re talking to Mr. Antonio Barnes.”
Still, the denials battered his perception and examined his endurance.
“They were trying to see if I’d give up,” he says. “It was arduous. But I instructed myself, ‘I will die before I give up.’”
Then one afternoon last spring, while he was reading in the prison law library, another inmate told him the parole officer was looking for him. He grew anxious. He hurried upstairs to her office. “Maryland is letting you go,” she told him.
He felt his knees start to wobble, same as 36 years prior, when he stood in that Baltimore City courtroom as a cocky 20-year-old. His stomach tightened. He could barely speak. Only this time, it was relief.
“I was shaking like a ’57 Chevy,” he says.
On July 20, he walked out of the Coleman Federal Correctional Complex in central Florida. An Uber driver picked him up and gave him a carry to the bus station, the place he hopped on a Greyhound sure for Charlotte. Barnes sat within the backseat, staring out the window, and when the automotive pulled onto the freeway, he closed his eyes and started to cry.
Now, as an alternative of a pistol on his nightstand, he retains his cellular phone close by. The calls come late, typically at 2:30 or 3 within the morning, and it’s his job to reply them.
Barnes at present works as a peer help specialist at ARJ, a psychological well being heart in Charlotte co-owned by his nephew Demon Brown, who overcame his personal troubled teenage years on the streets of Baltimore, plus three stays in a juvenile facility, to develop into a standout level guard for UNC Charlotte’s basketball crew within the early 2000s.
Demon had a room prepared for his uncle and a job ready for him after Barnes was launched in July. “As soon as he came home, he told me he wanted to help others any way he could,” Demon says. “How many guys getting out of prison think like that?
“I’m telling you, the only thing he ever talked about doing for himself was getting up to a Colts game.”
At ARJ, Barnes specializes within the heart’s most at-risk sufferers, so much like those he labored with in jail. He’s taken what he discovered on the within and now makes use of it to save lots of lives.
“A lot of these patients are battling substance abuse issues,” Brown says. “Some are just out of prison. Some are in and out of shelters. Some are homeless. It’s incredibly challenging, and Antonio just has this talent, like this empathy for them, that helps him connect.”
One current name got here in the midst of the evening. A lady was delirious, wanting to harm herself. Barnes stayed on the cellphone together with her for 5 hours.
“I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t do none of that,” he says. “But every time we have a successful story with one of our patients, that’s the biggest high in the world for me.”
His aim is to have “Prison is Not a Playground” handed out in juvenile detention facilities throughout Charlotte. He needs to talk to school rooms. He needs to make use of his story to alter lives. He goes again to what Detective Ed Burns instructed him 37 years in the past whereas he sat in a jail cell awaiting processing after his conviction. “Barnes, you’re smart,” Burns stated. “You can still make something of your life.”
He’s decided to.
He by no means watched “The Wire.” No want, he says. He lived it. (On Wednesday, Simon posted on X — previously Twitter — that the Bird character was not based mostly on Barnes or anyone individual, that the identify was “a simple shout-out by Ed Burns and myself to a Baltimore street legend whose adventures date to the 1970s.”)
But Barnes says Burns “saved my life.” He calls the life sentence he was handed in April 1987 “the greatest reward a career criminal could receive.” Without it, he believes, he wouldn’t be alive.
Away from work, he’s nonetheless acclimating to his new life, and typically has hassle sleeping, startled awake by these little noises he by no means used to listen to in jail. He takes lengthy walks within the afternoons, nonetheless in disbelief that he’s a free man. He borrowed a automotive lately so he might apply parking, one thing he hadn’t finished because the spring of 1987.
He began saving for a visit to Indianapolis as quickly as he was launched this summer time, then burned by means of nearly each greenback he needed to make it occur. He was granted permission from his parole officer to make the journey, then slogged by means of 16 hours on a Greyhound, too excited to sleep. “That ride could’ve taken two days,” he says, “and it wouldn’t have bothered me.”
Around midday on New Year’s Eve, he slid into his seat in Section 126 at Lucas Oil Stadium, surprised by the scene in entrance of him. He’d by no means seen a lot blue in his life. He snapped images. He discovered that everybody stands when it’s third down. He sweated out a 23-20 win for the Colts that saved their playoff hopes alive.
“It still don’t seem like it’s real,” he texted his nephew.
After the sport, he lingered contained in the stadium for over an hour, till the place was virtually empty.
“Still feels like a dream I’m going to wake up from.”
(Illustration: John Bradford / The Athletic; images courtesy of Antonio Barnes, Bobby Ellis / Getty Images)
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